Hope In A Hysterectomy......

I have been on this journey of Chronic Pelvic Pain and Illness for more than a decade. During this phase of my life I have done everything that I can possibly do to get rid of this enemy that has invaded my body. I have taken many, many, many, medications, had spinal injections, physical therapy, changed what i eat, had several surgeries, had devices implanted that nearly killed me, took Lupron for 9 months, and a host of other failed attempts at taking back my body and my life. Lately, the pain has continued to intensify and cause other problems. Unfortunately, nothing seems to work, nothing dulls the pain, nothing suppresses the complications, this enemy combination of Endometriosis and Chronic Pelvic Pain continue to incapacitate me daily in one way or another. Like my doctors, I am at the end of my rope and ready to jump. After two more ultrasounds and some testing, my GYN and I have decided that A Full Hysterectomy is my best hope for some freedom and relief. Before you say it, Yes, I know a hysterectomy is NOT a cure for Endometriosis but I am dealing with more than Endometriosis. So the decision to have the Full Hysterectomy is not just based on controlling Endo as much as it is of getting rid of whatever it is that is handicapping me. At last ultrasound, they could not find anything that would give them a definitive explanation for my pain and why it is so resistant to treatments and medications. I have  Fibroids, Endometriosis, Primary Infertility,  Interstitial Cystitis, and PCOS, this is a lethal combination to live with.  So, the hysterectomy will, get rid of the Fibroid filled uterus, my cysts filled ovaries, my cervix that has never had the chance to dilate, any legions of Endometirosis will be excised, and those periods that cripple me and have me laid out in the hospital will just be a bad memory.  Maybe after the hysterectomy, I will be able to sit and have my hair down without being in intense pain and needing a week to recover. Maybe after the hysterectomy, I will be able to walk through a store without needing the riding cart. Maybe after the hysterectomy, I will be able to get out and be more active with family and friends. I miss traveling. I miss home. I miss ME. For me, this hysterectomy is more than a surgery, it is the rebirth of Me. I will never be the woman I was pre-illness but I will be a woman who survived. It is through my journey that I will be able to continue to help, educate, and empower other women who suffer. While I know I have a long and painful road ahead of me, my focus is on the after. I see days of minimal to no pain. I see period free days. I see days of getting up out of the bed and going out of the house. I see a whole new and exciting world. So, the countdown has begun, starting with Pre Op Meeting on June 8, 2015. Lets Go Hysterectomy!!!!!!!!!!!!